Man, you people have seriously got to butt out of my life.
Just kidding really. If I don't want it known, I'll post it under private. Ah, the benefits of the web.
I want to call JB but I think he's at band practice. Something's seriously bothering him. He said he'd tell me but we haven't had a chance to talk. Accursed school/work/practice. Obivously, my first choice to call would be Franklin. But he's still at work, at least for another 20 minutes. So, by default, I have no one to talk to :P. And I want to talk. Which leads me here.
Oh, I reach for you.
It's been an interesting week. Certainly has. Things have been nothing short of hectic, stressful...and any other word under the sun for just plain annoying. Ah, don't I just LOVE these days leading up to full moon. Drive me nuts. Not like I'm not already.
I did something last night that I haven't been able to do for two years. I actually talked about my relationship with Trey without feeling heartbroken, torn, upset, hopeless, or still in love. It was WONDERFUL to just get it all off my chest. And the whole time, I didn't feel that piercing pain like I used to. I felt completely indifferent. Completely...whole. Bad choice of word, but I can't think of another one. It's funny. You can obviously tell how completely in love I was with him. I thought I'd never get over it, even when I was with Chris. Two years later, and I can finally let it go, and mean it.
The beauty of having someone that you love, and that loves you back in the same way, with the same intensity. That's what that is. Freedom of knowing that finally, I might have someone who's not gonna leave. There's still that pessimistic part of me in the back of my head that's yelling YEA RIIIGHT...but that's always gonna be there. Because I've just been too hurt for too long for it not to be. What chick doesn't classify every male alive into the "asshole" category? But anyways, yes, it was very nice to finally get everything I've held back out. There's probably not much Franklin doesn't know about me by now. Which is slightly scary. He's just easy to talk to. And as an added bonus, if I have a problem, if I feel we're going to have a problem, if something bugs me, all I have to do is say something. And we talk it out. Which is great. Because in my past relationships...there wasn't a whole lot of communication. Especially with Chris. We had a serious problem trying to work out problems.
People and their idiocy piss me off. That's all I'm saying about that. For many people's sakes. Mostly just because I promised not to.
Gee. This is a long entry. Then again, most of them are.
Yay for 5 o'clock. Even though....now it's like 5:05. And I really HAVE been typing for thirty minutes. So I'm going to quit typing up the internet. And work on the phone. LOL | 
